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Patience is a Virtue

Posted in dreams, interests, love, me time, thoughts on November 28, 2008 by anairam

November is the month I have been waiting for. I don’t really know why I waited, I’m not even sure if I have to, but I guess I just want to, because i am hoping.

He was out for almost 3 months, it was like he hibernated or something. I even thought he probably lost his cell phone, which would explain why he hadn’t message me for so long. He was reviewing for the civil engineering boards.

Yesterday, finally, I received a quote message from him. I immediately replied “Ei, musta? Taken the boards na?”. And yep, he passed. ^_^. He told me he was really avoiding the real world for the past months to focus his mind on the exams (*me sighed in relief– as I thought he had forgotten all about me*). And my joy to learn that aside from his family and orgmates, I was one of the first few people he texted, emerging from hibernation, delivering the good news. And the promises flooded again… “I”ll treat you on my first pay day”, he said. And there I go again, my heart jumping with mixed emotions. Happy for him, excited, very much looking forward to see him. It always happens when he promises to meet me. But sadly it never pushed through. 3 dates not met, the Baguio trip, UP centennial celebration, the supposed end of September gig. And here goes the first pay day treat. We’ll see…

Here are my latest quotable quotes: Absence makes the heart grow fonder & Patience is a virtue. I don’t even know what I am waiting for. I just hope it finds me…

Overwhelmed?!

Posted in dreams, life, love, me time, thoughts on November 28, 2008 by anairam

After 2 months of being apart and almost the same span of time with no communication… I seem to have forgotten the feeling.. *thinking of the song, “I remember the boy, but I don’t remember the feeling anymore”* hehe…

With all the realizations pouring on me now, I would have gone to conclude that it was just a case of me being overwhelmed with much attention that I didn’t received from him back in our college days. Imagine being together for 24 days, 12 hours a day, 6 days a week, and a bonus 2 nights 3 days escapade to paradise, closer than ever, sharing one’s dreams, having the whole beach on our own for 3 days–( ok lets not do this again, hehe). Who wouldn’t fall for that? I did. And I guess now it’s all over and reality is waking me up from a beautiful dream.

At present there are much rumors that he might be – gay… I just saw his pics with our “recently OUT” friend with his other gay friend… (maybe they’re convincing him of his true nature.. haha.. Who cares about that now anyway?) Sometimes I wish I didn’t do some things that I did, *now now, like I did something unbelievably stupid eh?* (like crying every night for the whole week after the paradise escapade, realizing that the dream has come to an end) but I still live with my principles, “to forget and never regret

Bump

Posted in interests, love, me time, thoughts on October 26, 2008 by anairam

Ohhh…

I was in Fully Booked yesterday, passing time while waiting for a friend. I was looking at a stack of “Twilight” books with the movie cover (instead of the original “hand holding a red apple” cover) when a person joined me in my left side. Thinking that that person might just be gazing at the “Twilight” stack as well, I continued exploring the cover. About 30 seconds later, with the aid of my peripheral vision, I realized that the person was just standing there, facing me and not the stack. Then he called out my name and voila.. It was him.

Of all people. Haha.

Destiny? Nah.

He looked neat that day, newly shaved face, him wearing his usual pair of glasses, plain white shirt, khaki shorts and a pair of sneakers.

About 5 minutes after, he left.

And 2 minutes after that, I realized that I missed him…

The Last Time

Posted in love, me time, thoughts on October 26, 2008 by anairam

I knew it.. I knew in my heart he was never ever going to choose me….

This were the last moments…

He drove us to my house. He cooked dinner and I gladly assisted with the preparations. Picture-taking and bonding at the living room. Then it was time to say goodbye. I was at the gate. He was ready to go. As he was climbing into the driver’s seat.. The last words were, “Thanks Anairam… for everything”. As they were about to go, I retreated myself to the back of our gate, sad and teary-eyed but I didn’t close the gate just yet. I heard the engine started, for about 3 minutes I stood there waiting for the sound of the van leaving. I never peeked out again. As sure as I was that the van was gone, I looked out again and then closed the gate. And in my heart I said goodbye.

It’s Fun to be an Aquarian Woman

Posted in interests, me time, thoughts on October 22, 2008 by anairam

The AQUARIUS Woman

But Alice had got so much into the -way

of expecting nothing but out-of-the-way things to happen

that it seemed quite dull and stupid

for life to go on in the common way

Put cats in the coffee, and mice in the tea- And welcome Queen Alice with thirty times three!

The safest way to enter into romance with an Aquarian female is to remember she’s as paradoxical in love as she is in everything else. That way, you won’t be expecting Priscilla Alden and get Pocahontas.

This girl has all the faithfulness of the fixed signs when she’s in love, but she also has the detachment and lack of emotion of the air element. It’s possible to have a happy relationship with the Uranus woman if you leave her free to pursue her myriad interests and circulate among her friends. Continue reading

It’s Not Meant to Be…

Posted in interests, love, me time, relationships, thoughts on October 20, 2008 by anairam

and I quote:

🙂 nakabalik na pala si ….. sa s… di talaga kayo meant to be.

Me > naisip ko rin yan haha.

and according to the stars:

Dear Anairam,
Here is your single’s love horoscope
for Monday, October 20:

Stop thinking so much about what could have been something amazing with someone who’s no longer interested in a romantic encounter. Even though the outcome is disappointing, you shouldn’t dwell on a future that will never be. Move on.

Me > Sakto! Haha

and last but not the least, a recent online conversation with a friend:

🙂 hay alam mo nung nabasa ko ung blog mo…hindi ko alam kung gusto ko na sana magstay sya sa n…baka nga kasi mag-fall kau sabay…

🙂 basta maraming isda sa karagatan…wag nang balikan ang mga minahal sa nakaraan…hehe

Me > Wow. clap clap. and pakshet, you’re still reading my blog pala. sana dito ka na lang magcomment. Peace *******. I love you friend. haha.

When Destiny Plays…

Posted in adventures, dreams, interests, love, me time, thoughts on October 9, 2008 by anairam

It was approximately 2 years ago when I finally got over a 4-year long unrequited infatuation over someone (a good friend from class). It was when he finally had a girlfriend and I have learned to let go, wished him well, wished both of them happiness (genuinely) and decided that it’s time for me to shift priority to myself and find another source of happiness.

…. I have this perfect picture in mind. A dream that I put into writing in one of my journals for the past years. A beach side moment. Dusk/ sunset, walking by the beach barefoot, holding hands with my special someone. Then by night time, dinner by the beach, with torches lighting us. Guided by the moonlight, we’ll be walking along the shore. Tired of walking, we’ll be sitting in the powder white sand, gazing up into the night sky, hunting for shooting stars, wishing the night would never end …

What if that perfect scenario happens?

And it is with the very same person you promised yourself 2 years ago you’d let go and never bother to waste even a single second to think of again… (and when I say “think of”… alam na natin kung sa paanong paraan)

I just don’t get the point…

I mean, why now?… after 6 long years…

And then what? … after a month (which by this time that I reported about this matter, another 2 months has passed)…

Nada…

None.

Why does destiny have to play with your feelings like that… err…