Archive for November, 2008

Patience is a Virtue

Posted in dreams, interests, love, me time, thoughts on November 28, 2008 by anairam

November is the month I have been waiting for. I don’t really know why I waited, I’m not even sure if I have to, but I guess I just want to, because i am hoping.

He was out for almost 3 months, it was like he hibernated or something. I even thought he probably lost his cell phone, which would explain why he hadn’t message me for so long. He was reviewing for the civil engineering boards.

Yesterday, finally, I received a quote message from him. I immediately replied “Ei, musta? Taken the boards na?”. And yep, he passed. ^_^. He told me he was really avoiding the real world for the past months to focus his mind on the exams (*me sighed in relief– as I thought he had forgotten all about me*). And my joy to learn that aside from his family and orgmates, I was one of the first few people he texted, emerging from hibernation, delivering the good news. And the promises flooded again… “I”ll treat you on my first pay day”, he said. And there I go again, my heart jumping with mixed emotions. Happy for him, excited, very much looking forward to see him. It always happens when he promises to meet me. But sadly it never pushed through. 3 dates not met, the Baguio trip, UP centennial celebration, the supposed end of September gig. And here goes the first pay day treat. We’ll see…

Here are my latest quotable quotes: Absence makes the heart grow fonder & Patience is a virtue. I don’t even know what I am waiting for. I just hope it finds me…

Overwhelmed?!

Posted in dreams, life, love, me time, thoughts on November 28, 2008 by anairam

After 2 months of being apart and almost the same span of time with no communication… I seem to have forgotten the feeling.. *thinking of the song, “I remember the boy, but I don’t remember the feeling anymore”* hehe…

With all the realizations pouring on me now, I would have gone to conclude that it was just a case of me being overwhelmed with much attention that I didn’t received from him back in our college days. Imagine being together for 24 days, 12 hours a day, 6 days a week, and a bonus 2 nights 3 days escapade to paradise, closer than ever, sharing one’s dreams, having the whole beach on our own for 3 days–( ok lets not do this again, hehe). Who wouldn’t fall for that? I did. And I guess now it’s all over and reality is waking me up from a beautiful dream.

At present there are much rumors that he might be – gay… I just saw his pics with our “recently OUT” friend with his other gay friend… (maybe they’re convincing him of his true nature.. haha.. Who cares about that now anyway?) Sometimes I wish I didn’t do some things that I did, *now now, like I did something unbelievably stupid eh?* (like crying every night for the whole week after the paradise escapade, realizing that the dream has come to an end) but I still live with my principles, “to forget and never regret