Archive for June, 2008

I’ll Catch You Later

Posted in adventures, dreams, friendship, interests, life, love, me time, thoughts on June 20, 2008 by anairam

I made a new friend today. Actually, we’ve been constantly messaging each other on a Facebook-based application, Flirtable, but it’s more of a friendly conversation, or you can say we’re friendly flirts. Haha. Today he finally added me to be his friend on Facebook, we chatted there (and I never realized that the little chat button there was useful) and he added me @ YM. In turn, I looked him up on Friendster and added him as a friend, and he requested to be my Multiply contact. Haha. Wonders of networking these days.

It was more of in the getting-to-know stage. Endless exchange of his and hellos and some information you can safely disclose. Up until the point that he made some significant step, he read my Multiply blog post, Love Hurts?! (which I originally posted here). It was then that there had been a change of mood, he complimented me with how I was able to magnificently write the post, with almost no grammatical error, in great content delivery. It felt terribly good. It was rather inspiring. A great morale/confidence booster. To be complimented by a stranger, and from which, by only with chatting as the means, I felt it was sincere.

It was then that I decided to return the favor and read his blog. Another change of mood, I terribly felt sad with his posts. I could have hugged him to comfort him if the chat was in person. He was so sad, really sad. It was riveting as he writes his sentences with every word coming from the heart. Turns out he’s broken hearted, and the passion just runs through his posts. Damn, why is it that I’m a magnet of broken-hearted guys. No wonder I’m single right now. I just hope that God wouldn’t allow that I’d be the “comforter of the afflicted”, or panakip-butas, that’s how I define it.

Going back. Tonight, I met a very inspiring person. The one who made me feel terribly flattered and happy one minute and sympathetic and lonely the other. I called him the weird computer genius as he refers to me as super-duper-uber therapeutic genius (YM message status). The ‘schizophrenic’ and the ‘hopeless romantic’. It ended when I called it a night and it ended there. ” I’ll catch you later”

To the weird computer genius who inspired me this whole night. this post is for you:

I am hopeless romantic after all that’s why expect this words from me… Liver Cirrhosis is deadly, i’ll remind you next time constantly to bring this matter to your company doctor during your annual medical check-up (haha). Kidding aside, I do hope that still somewhere out there in your lonely aching heart that you’ll find inspiration to bring about the sleeping poet in you-the one who puts passion into his writing and who is rather unaware of the depth it brings to it’s sympathetic readers. I know your a beautiful person, imperfect, schizophrenic, inspiring, interesting. Keep your hopes up. Until we meet again. Ciao. – your equally imperferct, schizophrenic, inspiring, beautiful person….


Love Hurts?!

Posted in interests, life, love, me time, thoughts on June 10, 2008 by anairam

Realize this:

“Everyone says love hurts, but that’s not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love. But in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that doesn’t hurt. “

Not that I had experienced a great deal of loving (pertaining to romantic love), but I maybe one of the few people who probably still believes that LOVE is the best thing that ever existed on earth. This LOVE that I’m referring to may pertain but is not limited to romantic love but of all sorts. It makes the world go round. One cannot deny, even the most selfish person on earth could have made reason that he loved something/someone so much that he wouldn’t want to give some away. Or even a hermit in seclusion could probably confess of loving himself/loving his peace so much that he wants to keep it to himself alone. The point is love is supposed to be good, if not the better or the best, but what’s with all the stories of love being the source of all the hurt?

Here’s my scientific take on it:

One thing to point out is that maybe love has been so universal that it has been intertwined with all the other concepts that exist. Truth is, love comes with no definition, it only comes with the assurance from the people who experienced it in its various forms that everything will be worth it. It will be wonderful, it will be the best.

It maybe the consequences, the situation, the many factors that comes along with love that makes everything so complicated and confusing. Love exists in “Life” and so are many ideas, concepts, feelings, emotions, or whatever factors you may have on your mind. One may experience the negative factors of life e.g. rejection, envy, anger, pride, loneliness; of which may co-exist with love in a situation. The end goal of love being not fulfilled (being happy forever and ever) may have been one reason why it all boils down to blaming love for everything, not considering all the negative aspects that coexisted with it. Kung iisipin kawawa naman pala si love.

And now I am thinking of all those people who are afraid of falling and experiencing love again after a failed previous mission to reach the end goal of love. It was because they were once rejected, they cried all night because of loneliness, they grew tired of it, they gave up on it, they were hurt. Come to think of it, you can experience the same rejection, loneliness, exhaustion, and hurt in your everyday life even not in application to a romantic relationship. But with love, it comes with a special meaning. You gave up due to hurt secondary to all the other factors but not with love. And if love is strong enough, it can conquer even the harshest rejection, the deepest loneliness, the greatest hurt. It revives the worst wounds and makes everything turn out to be better/best. Because it the end, the most important thing is that you loved and you gave it your best shot. ^_^

If I Believe

Posted in dreams, interests, love, me time, music, video on June 5, 2008 by anairam


“if you run out of reasons to live, remember that..

someone else’s life may never be complete without YOU in it.

You are being loved more than you ever know…”

gurl: *forwards quote to someone*
someone: uyyy…
gurl: Quote 🙂
someone: forward nino? uyyy…
gurl: nyar, pinsan ko no? ate
someone: ah ok! hehe
gurl: bakit ano iniisip mo?
someone: akala ko forward ng fans mo. hehe
gurl: wala akong fans no. di pako sikat. naghahanap pa lang.
someone: hehe. kala mo lang yun. hehe.
gurl: o? sikat ako hindi ko alam? teka, howjuknow? haha
someone: basta! Believe.
gurl: Ok. I believe.

If I Believe- Patti Austin

If I believed in paradise
I’d swear I must be there
I’d swear I must be there right now with you
If I believed in miracles
I’d know that one was happening to me
But if I don’t believe in paradise
Then miracles aren’t real
Then someone tell me what is this I feel

I wanna believe it’s love this time
I wanna believe my heart’s not telling me a lie
But with you I can’t deny
if I believed in paradise
I’d swear I’m there

If I believed in magic spells
It all would be so clear
‘Cause magic spells must have brought you here
If I could see the future
I’d see if you and I were meant to be
But I dont know any magic
And tomorrow’s just a dream
But something in this fantasy is real

I wanna believe it’s love this time
I wanna believe my heart’s not telling me a lie
I wanna believe it’s love this time
I wanna believe my heart’s not telling me a lie
But with you I cant deny
If I believed in paradise
I’d swear I’m there

I’m there
I’m there
If I believed.