Archive for October, 2007

Sober

Posted in interests, music, video on October 19, 2007 by anairam

Something from Kelly Clarkson. I don’t know if I can identify with the song. Maybe so. I just like it now at this moment ^_^

Sober- Kelly Clarkson

And I don’t know
This could break my heart or save me
Nothing’s real
Until you let go completely
So here I go with all my thoughts I’ve been saving
So here I go with all my fears weighing on me

Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers
But I know it’s never really over

And I don’t know
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won’t worry about my timing, I want to get it right
No comparing, second guessing, no not this time

Three months and I’m still breathing
Been a long road since those hands I left my tears in but I know
It’s never really over, no

Wake up

Three months and I’m still standing here
Three months and I’m getting better yeah
Three months and I still am

Three months and it’s still harder now
Three months I’ve been living here without you now
Three months yeah, three months

Three months and I’m still breathing
Three months and I still remember it
Three months and I wake up

Three months and I’m still sober
Picked all my weeds but kept the flowers

(It actually is more than 3 months. About a year I think. Ehe)

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Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon (Part 2)

Posted in interests, photos, television on October 19, 2007 by anairam

Update to my first post, Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon: https://marsmallow.wordpress.com/2007/07/30/pretty-guardian-sailor-moon/
for those who weren’t able to read my update on the comment part of the post here it is:

UPDATE: I was able to watch all 49 episodes already (with the special acts yet to explore) on the net after we got our net connection upgraded to a faster line. Anyways, if you want to watch it in the net as well, it can be found in You Tube, just type PGSM and many related videos will be displayed. And an episode is called an Act there (e.g. Episode 1= Act 1), as I have encountered some other fans who were searching for PGSM episodes rather than PGSM Act. However, the videos in You Tube are cut in parts, say an Act would total ~23 minutes, but in You Tube, uploaded were 3 parts of 9 minutes each for the first 2 and 5-6 for the last. Probably so that it is easier to load.

Halfway of my PGSM marathon, I was introduced to Facebook, were I found a group of PGSM fans who recommended a good site for full Acts. Here is the site:

http://www.crunchyroll.com/showseries?id=444

It plays the full episode, and if your internet connection is fast, you can load the whole episode for 10 minutes or less. But you need to sign up first for a membership on the site. Don’t worry it’s for free. ^_^

I hope this guide helps. I thought I was the only one interested in this, but so far I was checking my stats and there were so many clicks on this topic so I thought I would update the readers.

So co-fans and interested readers, enjoy watching. And I hope to hear on what you think about it. Ciao! ^_^ ^_^

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Top: (Left-Right: Mako-chan, Minako-chan, Usagi-chan, Rei-chan, and my favorite Ami-chan)

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Top: In Casual Get-ups (from left: Venus, Mercury, Moon, Mars, Jupiter)

I have learned to love the series because of the drama, and the story, and the characters. Enjoy!

Pictures above taken from: http://www.pbase.com/pgsmgallery/root

Recurring Dreams

Posted in dreams, interests on October 14, 2007 by anairam

Being this bum and all must have it’s consequences. That is having recurring dreams. And when I say recurring, I mean to say I have seen the same dream before, maybe not exactly identical, but it is indeed the same place, same scenario, but maybe with the same or different people. It’s like deja vu in waking life. And everytime I do wake up that is when I would realize that I had that dream before, only now there is something a bit different about it.

A recurring dream is an important message that hasn’t yet been delivered

Recurring dreams make most sense when you think that your unconscious has a message for you and the message is too important for it to drop just because you don’t understand it.

So, a recurring dream contains an important message. One that is worth repeating over and over.

Recurring dreams are never identical

Before you look at them in detail, it usually seems that the recurring dreams are all the same. Not so! When you take them seriously e.g. write them down, you’ll see variations.

http://www.dreamreplay.com/recurring_dreams.htm

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Recurring dreams can be extremely informative and important to decipher. Your subconscious mind has gone to a great deal of trouble to send the same “dream telegram” several times, and it will generally continue to do so until you recognize the insight being offered, or outgrow the issue being addressed. Often these dreams recur for a discrete period of time, such as during childhood, adolescence, college years, or during a specific relationship or period of employment. If you outgrow or move away from a certain lifestyle you may stop having the recurring dream, unless something in your current situation strikes a similar emotional chord from your past; then the dream may resurface, like an emotional “home movie” of certain feelings and moods. http://www.lifetreks.com/lifetreks2/recurring.asp

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CASE 1

If you are familiar with the Big Brother House, I think the setup is kind of like that. Only that the only thing I see is the kitchen and the bedroom but the more prominent is the bedroom. The bedroom setup is like this, there were I think 4 or 5 double-sized beds which were pushed to be connected together and make a one big bed. Then there is this one guy who is present in my 2 dreams. I think were the close friends there. I wasn’t familiar with this person in waking life. His face was not so clear, but he has a nicely trimmed bearded face with nice aura, I think. Hehe. In the first dream, as I recall it, we were like the bed buddies. He was lying on the one end of the big bed and I was beside him (meaning he was at the edge and I was the only person who is beside him, while in my position, he was on my left side, and have another person on my right, gets?).

Bed

To dream that you are going to bed with a stranger, suggests that you are making friends too fast. You need to be more cautious.

Then on the second dream, the scene started with the 2 of us entering the room, we were actually making the bed, laying the white bed sheets and blanket while chatting. And this time he specifically told me the we are to change positions. This time I will be on the end while he will be beside me on my right. Then it ended as we were about to sleep, he kissed me on the cheeks. Maybe a way of saying goodnight. Haha. Sweet.

Bedspread

To notice or buy bedspread in your dream, represents your open sexuality and outward beauty. The design and look of the bedspread may be a clue as to what you are looking for sexually. http://dreammoods.com/cgibin/searchcsv.pl?method=exact&header=dreamsymbol&search=sheets

Blanket

To see a blanket in your dream, symbolizes warmth, love, security and protection. You may be seeking for some form of shelter from the outside world. Consider also how your dream may be calling attention to a “cover-up” in some situation or circumstance in your waking life. http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/b2.htm

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CASE 2:

This one’s fresh. I just dreamt of this about 3 hours ago. So this is the second dream that recurred. I dreamt that I was bathing in the bathroom. Here’s the catch, a guy is there with me. No were not bathing together though, haha. He was just merely standing there. I don’t know if he’s watching, he’s like a human form of a dress stand haha. What I mean about that is that because he was just standing there doing nothing, not at all giving any expression. I was bathing and all, then I decided to go out of the bathroom, I think I got my clothes from outside, then when I came back there inside, ….. I asked him to kiss me. Wahh. So he did, now I forgot if it was on the cheeks or on the lips, but I remembered some weird thing he was wearing a red lipstick. I mean really red lipstick. haha. The first time I dreamt about this was of the same scene, only that the first one ended when I stepped out of the bathroom.

Bath

To dream that you are taking a bath, signifies a cleansing of your outer and inner self and a washing away of difficult times. This dream may also be symbolic of ridding yourself of old ideas, notions, opinions, and other negativities. Your dream may be pointing toward forgiveness and letting go. http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/b.htm

BathroomTo dream that you are in the bathroom, relates to your instinctual urges. You may be experiencing some burdens/feelings and need to “relieve yourself”. Alternatively, it may symbolize purification and self-renewal. You need to cleanse yourself, both emotionally and psychologically. http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamthemes/places.htm

Only when I woke up did I realize. Was I naked in bathing? I dunno. Maybe so. But I never realized it till I woke up so I didn’t research for anything about it.

There. Fantasies? And did you notice both of the dreams have kissing scenes in the recurred one? As of now I don’t know the message, if there is a message. Am yet to find out. More dreams to come.. woohoo. ^_^

My Dream Dream

Posted in dreams, interests, love, photos, relationships, thoughts on October 13, 2007 by anairam

Yes, you’ve read it right. I dreamt of my dream dream. Haha. It’s just that I dreamt of my 4 crushes (previous and present, fact and fictional) all in one dream. Haha. My lucky day. It’s cute, at least two of them were present in one scene. But dreams are meant to be weird and complicated. Some scenes were sweet, in another I just find myself crying. But I’m just happy that I get to see them all together, faces were clear, they were really there with me and without me ever needing to wake up. It’s like watching, or rather, being in a TV series, with your story, your very own character and with your choice of leading men to participate. Haha. It’s just too bad I have to wake up and poof, realizing dreams are meant to be dreams. Ang haba na sana ng hair ko. Bakit kasi di na lang siya mangyari sa tunay na buhay. Hay.

Crush

To dream about a former crush, refers to that particular period in your life and what you were feeling. The former crush represents a point in time when you first had the crush on that person. http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/c4.htm

Let’s name them shall we? 2 of them were my high school crushes; one a fictional character; and one well is the present crush. Let’s give them codes. I use to refer my 2 high school crushes as Recca and Dylan. Yes, ever watched the Flame of Recca? Hehe, Recca is the real love interest of the girl, and Dylan is one man who sees the girl as his sister (because he thinks she has some resemblance to her kidnapped sister), so he also cares for her. In real life, Recca is my “high school love team” and Dylan is a close friend/ crush and he calls me ate (big sister) for some reason although he’s older than me and I end up calling him kuya (big brother). So my code names have basis, nice fit eh? Haha. Moving on, the fictional character is Chiba Mamoru, yes of Sailor Moon. But I’m referring not to the anime character but to the guy who played him in the Live Action version. Some cutie! Hehe. And last but not the least, the topic of my many blog post, the present, let’s call him Batchoy.

The first scene was we were in a videoke room. With me was Recca and one high school close friend (Icy). We were having fun on singing on videoke, teasing, kulitan, etc. till we have to end because it’s night already, and it’s closing time. But here’s the deal, a bed was suddenly there, yes, we never did walked out of the room, it is the same room we were singing in. The room was painted in white, the sheets and pillowcases were white. And that’s all you’ll ever find in the room, a bed in white, white walls and a door out.

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White

White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. However, in Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning. http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamthemes/colors.htm#White

Bedroom

To dream that you are in the bedroom, signifies aspects of your self that you keep private. It is also indicative of your sexual nature. http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamthemes/house.htm

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Then it’s time to sleep. Well, first of all, nothing intimate happened eh?! I just found myself lying in bed in between Recca and Batchoy. Recca was on my right and was lying in supine like me, while Batchoy on my left was lying in prone. And that’s it. On to the next scene.

I then found myself with Dylan, who brought me to the hospital to visit his sick grandmother. As we were in front of the door, he opened it, but we didn’t enter just yet. I think I saw a ventilator from the outside, and thought her grandmother was dead and I saw myself crying right then and there. Weird eh? And to think that isn’t my grandmother.

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Cry

To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions. http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/c4.htm

Hospitals

Hospitals really bother us a lot. We are exposed to them at many levels in our own lives and through media and entertainment. Whether you are the patient or the visitor, no one wants to be there. Yet to dream of a hospital is not uncommon.

As often as not, hospital dreams have little to do with sickness. However, in many hospital dreams, we have good reason to be there. They break down into dreams involving the emergency room, general care, intensive care, being unable to leave, and receiving nonsensical treatment in them.

General care dreams reflect our sense of needing or being needed by others. Differentiated from the above dream, general care dreams do not reflect a crisis-level anxiety, but more of a dependent lifestyle. The relationship in a hospital is a one-way flow from care-giver to patient. This is a picture of dependence. http://predictions.astrology.com/dd/hospitals.html

Grandparents

As a general rule grandparents are a symbol of, love, security, love, protection, love, home, and love… http://www.sleeps.com/dictionary/ggg.html

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Anyways, as I thought she was dead, but she isn’t. We entered the room and was greeted at first by a grumpy grand mom. But then as we chat along, I figured she was beginning to like me. I saw me and Dylan passively moving her lower limbs (like that of what I do in my physical therapy profession—passive range of motion exercises). Then we were chatting with each other, I think it was about Dylan’s ex-girlfriends manner of dancing (feeling weird?) and one moment I think I saw grand mom standing and was demonstrating the dance (really really weird, haha). Then we were laughing and was happy.

Then visitors came entering the room, yes it was Chiba Mamoru, hehe. My, my, so gorgeous. Haha. He was Dylan’s friend visiting grand mom too and I think he was giving me a jealous stare. Haha. I feel like we know each other and he was wondering why I was there with Dylan. Bwahaha. Basta, bottom line selos siya kay Dylan. Weehee.

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Celebrity

To see a celebrity in your dream, represents your beliefs and understanding about him or her. Something in you waking life has triggered these similar beliefs and feelings. It is not uncommon that your obsession with a certain celebrity may carry over onto your dream world. Celebrities are often seen as heroes and all that is mighty. Also consider any puns within the name. http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/c2.htm

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The End.

Waah. I just wished it would happen in real life. But then again it won’t because Recca has a girlfriend, Dylan is getting married early next year, Batchoy is nowhere to be seen, and well, Mamoru is in Japan, maybe doing another TV series. Hay. I was just wondering what was the dream’s message. I’m yet to figure it out. But for now. I love dreaming… Haha.

By the way, here’s the pic of the guy who played Chiba Mamoru, Shibue Jyoji:

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Waaaah!

Music of my Heart

Posted in love, music, relationships, thoughts, video on October 11, 2007 by anairam

Yesterday, he remembered. Yes, he remembered me. Thanks to the chocoflakes.

It started in an exchange of message, with me trying hard to come off as sweet but maybe recognized still in the pal category. Hay. Anyways, the messages were all about music. Turns out a song i loved in the past and I still know it by heart till now got his attention. He loved the song and it showed in the way he wrote down his profile in Friendster. The title was Never Saw Blue Like that” by Shawn Colvin, its one of the soundtracks of Dawson’s Creek before.

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